1. Loss

How would it feel... Tension filled. Because I have to get a lot of tension in the ball. Fast. Could go faster though. That's one thing we’re working on. But when it's a good throw, it feels like I'm floating. So that's always a good feeling. I was very excited going to the Olympics. It was like the perfect season to, like, in terms of performance. Peaking at the right time, throwing the distances I needed to, getting the A standard. Like it was perfect. And like, I saw little things here and there with the administration, with Nigeria, but I'm like, it's not a huge deal as long as it doesn't affect the actual outcome of me being able to compete. That’s all I wanted to do for them. Just to compete. So we get to Japan. And then one day we're taking a nap from all the jetlag. And I get a knock on my door from the throws coach for Nigeria and he tells us that we might be ineligible to compete. And so I hear that and I'm like, okay, that's just... Because I'm waking up from a nap. It feels like, okay, like I'm just dreaming at this point. Like that doesn’t make sense. And then finally, on my birthday, July 29th, they officially told us that we couldn't compete. Like say, you're into racing cars and, like, you have a really nice race car and, like, you built it from scratch, you just know all the mechanics of it. You're working on it every single day. And then before you even get it to actually go race it, you crash it. That's how it felt. After, all the hard days, and telling myself like the heavy lifts, and the thousands of reps will be worth it. I was really just questioning if it was worth it to continue. But it was for a reason, for sure. I know that now. But yeah, at the time I was just... I’m like it’s just too much work and too much to go through for it to not culminate to something.